Thursday, July 30, 2009

6:43 AM

amaciam

hmphh . as you can see , it has been a long time since i last updated . hahh , reason was , came back home late and was unable to use comp . hmmpph lahh ehh hmpphh . now . today was damn moody . i was thinking abt a lot of things . banyak hal was in my mind . hmphh , im just scared of losing the happiness that i have in me now . i went through my ______ sent msgs and i found out something i was suprised . i was really disappointed . why must it be ? i wont let what happen last time happen again . is it time to tell my _______ ? coz i want to just let it out . i dont want to lose anybody now . please ? i dont want .

Suzila , we were once close but why now we're drifting ? is it me who is in the wrong ? we are now neither fighting nor baek-ing . we're just not talking . hmphh , maybe today i wasnt talking to you at all but that doesnt mean we are fighting kan ? merepek lahh ehh . bt fyi , i dun love him anymore kaeyy ? hmphh . no use lahh ehh . tady i was in a bad mood as for you to know . i was thinking of everything . mungken aku tk dpt bilang kau apehh jady but its nt because i hate you but because im still not ready to tell you coz it will led out my tears . tady , recess pon i wasnt even being hyper because i was making my decision . i was thinking of what really going to be my future . i was full with tears in my eyes but i stopped it from dripping because i dont want anybody to ask . i was not satisfied with whatsoever reasons . i was upset with ______ . i'm angry with someone else . but what im upsetting about was really a hard thing for me to forgive . if you're reading this , i want to know im sorry . i knw im nt the one you should be going to instead, Aisha is betterthan me . kaeyy ?

Farina , thankyou for having to care bout me . without you , im sure i'll be drench with tears . hmphh , its over over lahh . i knw bt now im really over him . only having feelings for him as a friend . hmphh . antare due laki i dun knw ___ ataw ___ . hmphh im confused . bt i knw my feelings for _____ dahh tkde .

Aisha , takecaree of suzila , can ? im nt the one who is good of having to takecare of her . you can layan her better . thanks for those 7 months of frenship. 230109 (:

The rest . im sorry if ive done wrong okeayy ?

_____ , ex , im already nt thinking of you , sukehh ? and btw , im nt fighting with suzila over you . its no use fighting over a guy . tk gune . kerje bodoh jehh lahh . pompan sumehh cnfrm agree kn ? hmphh just takecare and no naughty naughty (:

Abang , i knw you've been reading my blog . welcome (: hmphh . biler2 i want to tell you something about him .. i meant our family member (one of them) , ive been keeping smth and i think skrg masenye adk dpt blg . hmphh . and, adk dpt phone alek bler ? hehh . last but not least , last long and happy2 nan die taw . no naughty naughty (: hoho . takecaree (:

Yours truly ,

Thursday, July 23, 2009

7:23 AM

boredom made me do this .
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

6:21 AM

Farina

nyahaha . nampak ituu gbr pompan . asl tk sukehh diehh ? mehh trun syniee , jumpe akw . dpt penampar mayat dari akw . chehh chehh . diam luhh sehh ! huhu^^ akw mak die , abeyhh asl ? tk happy . kalaw tk , then tuu kaw nyehh sluar dalam , ataw boxers ataw choli ataw apehh apehh lahh ! kaeyy . i want to post sumerhh psl my outing nan die, chehh chehh . so keep on reading this .

Sunday
yeayy , sunday . i cabot ________ . the day before tht, i called farina several times bt she wasnt picking up her phne . so i was panicking as none of my close frens was coming to madrasah . so i msged ______, asked if she could accompany me cabot . hpmphh . tkleyy plak diehh *disappointed*. then the day after that which is sunday , at 7++ am , i was awaken by mummy's voice waking me up . i was stubborn to stand up to get ready for ________ and she pulled my hand and dragged me from my room to the master bed toilet . wahh . i was still closing my eyes , then mum did something , then i am awake ! lol . when bathing, FARINA anakku was calling me several times. was funny when i heard her story telling my dad smth . hahahahahahah . *tkperlu* then after bathing , called her and we met at her busstop . went to the nearest mac , changed clothes. then farina was like covering her mouth and nose when i was changing clothes coz the toilet was damn oh so smelly . huhu^^. bawuu chewing/bubble gum pon adr tawtaw . haha ! then bought our food . kekek things happened . farina ate so fast . see , she's not that lady-like ! hahah ! fake . she baek lahh eyhh *fake* ! hahaha . leklekk . then went to her house . i'm disguised as syafiqah based on some reasons . see , anak surohh mak tipu sakk ! hoho, kekek . we were like tahaning our laughter when i say my name is syafiqah . decided to go swimming and its diff for farina to go and she said smth which she wasnt supposed to and i was shocked okeayy shocked . farina farina . *gelengs kepale* kayy then went swimming , ate paw and farina ate *insertfoodhere*, tak tawuu lahh apehh bende ! diam ! then went her house . nobody at home , and guess what , farina washed her swimming costume while i was there talking , finding for food to eat . hehehehe . bt at least i helped in washing 1/2 of the laundry ? chehh laundry sehh . then finished , i goreng hotdog and fries to eat ! then on TKS,TKD song loudly and singalong . haha , then farina straighten my hair and it was like cantek . thnk you anakku , haha , wa hyper and we went off to lepak with pipit , wan , haled . when we wanted to open the door , iwas scared coz the nenek tue came into my mind and farina was like rolling her eyes . i saw that ! hehe ! then when we reached blok pipit , we were there firrst bt sharifah and co. joined us bt went off soon , then pipit and co . came . farina was called baby by wan . farina attch luhh . padehal2 . penipu nyehh anak ! chehh . tk lahh . then went off . haha . back home , rest .

Monday
Ini exciting jgak luhh . tapy tk seinteresting cam smlm . haha ! aftr sch , went farina's aunty house . to meet up with her . we bought some things. we're a so spender . pat pasar pon jady hahah . then went to blok pipit to lpk with suzila , ___ , pipit , wan , haled , hairi . hahha . kaeyy something happend . i was told to do the promise which i had made last time . but i thought it was only for last time *insertsangryface* hmphh . then biler dorang tk tgk , i did it . and when finished they didnt knw , and they start saying ' eyhh , dahh ? biler kaw buat ? gy buat lagy , kiter tk nmpk ' sakk ajehh , then went off coz police was rounding there . haha ! kekek . then go home luhh finish .

Tuesday
nothing much , i didnt lepak coz anakku tersayang , farina wasnt lepaking bt nvrmind lahh . its okeayy lagy pon i want rest at home .

Today
kaeyy its today ! wahh happy ? today went to beside jyc to leklek ajehh . found out somethng tht i knw will hppn . *tkpehhlahhface* then ___ came ! haha . he took my book and borrowed a pen and draw my name . haha , jap jap biler org tgk , nanty stop and say *jangan tgk luhh !* haha . kekek . then ended up the drawing is my name and a big heartshape around it . cantek taww . huhu^^ then wanted to go home , he wanted to giv me somethng bt nahh i dun want then suzila and farina , anakk-anakkku, forced me to bt i didnt want so be it . went back with farina, ros , sharifah , and iwan , they accompannied me to yunnan to buy things for tmrw's test and then we went seperate ways . me , farina, ros went to my hse while the rest went sumwhere else . made milo for farina and ros . and ate banana which farina says it ___'s ____ , hahah ! she said tht maybe loud ? but isit heard by my mother ? ohohhh !!!!!! chehh . then now im here (: nice ?

this is abt farina , she's naughty . not lady like . she lies .hahah . and many negative ones . but she's pretty like me (: the mother , haha . kekek lahh kn . no lahh , she very the good girl . tgk lahh mak die niee liyana jgak . haha .*campaham*

hmphh . i guess farina says its right .
if you actually like him why dont you just tell me/us .
rather than i gt to knw it by myself and i am hurt more .
you knw tht ? it just hurt me badly .
why did you side boys more than you side your own kawan yg paleng rapat to you .
i guess you sedar yourself if you knw im referring to you *pointstoyou*

Yours truly ,

Friday, July 17, 2009

4:05 AM

Missed it

Hellohhelloh . cheyhhcehh , hyper lahh sgtsgt niee . entahh asl . tady satuu hari tk kuwa . malas luhh kn kalaw tidak gy vivo luhh seyy ataw lepak sane syniee . huhu^^ kaeyy tady pt umah sorang luhh kn beyhh ini Farina , puki btol gy takotkn org . pasal yg nenek tue tuu . ishh geram sakk , punyerlahh irritating dengar die bobal psl pochong lahh ju'on lahh . haishh . very the kechorable luhh kn . hmphh , tgu jehh kaw . mampos kaw satu hari . hmphh ! i hate you ! cheyhh . ini anak akw yg kedue betuah sgt ! ishh . anak akw yg first tk tawuu mane die gy jeh luhh jeh luhh . haiyo , merayap jehh . lame tk msg msg die . haha . padehal2 . hmpph . bored lahh kn skrg .

sangat sangat . change topic . today at school was quite boring . kaeyy itu jehh . cheyhh tk lahh . pt class maths paleng kecohh . campak bola sane syniee . cikgu mane adr kesahh cume bgy warning ajeh . haha . i didnt join . good gerl lahh eyhh . cam paham lahh niee pompan . foohh ! kaeyy luh smpi di sini . and i wanna say i miss two person right now !

huhu ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
pnjg ? cheyhh! diam !

Yourstruly ,

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

5:21 PM

helloh ((: currently in school . i wanna update ! yesterday was like a very well not that very bad day for me as a lot of hmphh , confusing matters ? ex asked me if i still sayangkn die and i said maybe but that point of time , i need to offline because my abg da alek . huhu . tk sempat nk surohh die tgk blog ini if he really want to know the answer , but the thing is , he dun want me to interfere with his life anymore but what for he ask that question . hahh , after tht i went to my bed and took out one book and started to write smth . hmphh . went to bed at 11++ and dreamt of something unreasonable . haiyaaa ! but i want to continue dreaming of tht , coz it leads out so many clues to my feelings towards whoever i really like . but sadly , was awaken by grandmother . i was late ! i mean not tht late . i bathed like 5 mins ? my usual duration to bathe is like 15-20 mins . tapy naseb sekolah pt sblh jehh lahh kn . haha ! shutup seyhh. bored lahh kn skrg cm nk tdo ! haha . lepas niee leyy tdo pt class . bio luhh eyhh . senang sgt sgt nk tdo . ahah , ciikguu slenger tuu . brani kejot akw nanty , kene penampar . chyeehh ! cm phm beb ! kaeyy lahh nk gy web laen . byee

Yourstruly ,

4:20 AM

hmphh . helloh . just finished crying . tawuu asl ? because i read hazirah hawttstuuf blog beyhh there's some post that i went thru and its like similar to mine and the songs are like sangatsangat similar . hmphh , am i still liking him or have i forgotten abt him ? ohh sgtsgt peneng (!) i told myself , he's no more anything to me but why am i still thinking of you every second . in class , i'll daydream abt you . i cant pay attention in class , what i thought of everytime , was you , you and still you . the pain i had when i was breaking up with you is still here . i didnt manage to lose it because i really love you so much . i dont want to interfere with your life and i'm not but i'm still loving you and thinking of you . is tht mean interfering ? coz if it is , tell me and i will stop doing so but dont force me coz its hard . its rreally hard .

malam , ku tidur tk lena
teringat kn dirimu ,
terimbas kembali kenangan lalu
alangkah indahnya bersamamu.
mengalir air mataku , menemani malam sepiku .
ku rindu saat bersamamu
sukarnya untukku melupakan muu ,
ohh _____ (extra mine)

Yours truly ,

Monday, July 13, 2009

6:13 AM

Regretted

helloh , it has been a really long time since i last updated this profile luhh kn ? people have been missing my stories yang becok becok luhh knkn ? *mereps mood turned on* huhu , kaeyy diam seyhh . firstly i'm pissed as this comp just shuts off when i have already posted a long long story and it just cancels off without having to save . eyehhh ! i hate you comp . no lahh cheyhh , jgn marah marah beb . kaeyy dahh mereps . i dun want to bobal byk . just do some points lahh eyhh , nanty teroff susah dibuatnyehh , haiyoooo ! i love you comp ! muackssss !

hate the date , 9th.
- very bad day as in if attached , i will break up with boyf or have a big fight
  - if single , will have hal hal tk perluhh luhh kn .
    - i lose the two person i really loved once on this same date ):

apeyhh lagy eyhh ? ahh , i patched and broken up again , sungguh lahh sgtsgt sedeyhh .

he said i can be friends with him but ended up him telling me not to interfere with your life anymore .
- he said i was irritating him , (like wtf) adr kehh eyhh ?
  - i miss him and i want him back .
    ex kuu , A__ H______
    if you're reading this , i just wanna tell you i still do love you and tk mampu melepaskan you dan kehilangan you . tk pernah teringin untuk melepaskan you tapy segalenye telah berubah . kalaw memang i annoyed you , i mintak maaf . i tawuu i banyak susahkn you tapy i tk pernah untuk berniat untuk you hidup dlm stressed and confused . i care for you , i tk nk you berubah . jgn tindik sumerhh , please dgr kate i . dulu , u pernah tnye i bleyy tindek sumerhh ? bt i say no and you followed but now when you left me , you bukak balek tindek you . hmphh . i guess idw to interfere with your life anymore , pendek kate , i miss having to be around you , i miss your love and i still do love you . dont ever leave me , to 'clearen' the sentence , jangan pernah berhenti menjadi kwn i.
    friends, if you were to meet my dearest ex , send my regards to him . hmphh , everytime . okeyy thnks (:
    Yours Truly ,
    panjang panjang ?

5:41 AM

Regretted

Hmphh , it has been a long time since i updated this blog of mine (: haha missed my stories yg wonderful wonderful eyhh ? huhu , kaeyy diam . tknk ! *merepek mood switched on* kaeyy shutup luhh seyhh ! my story eyhh ? it has been like an upset moment for me . hmphh you knw why ? i patched with him but then we broke up aftr those swit memories i had with him . we broke up on the 9th july , something which made me fishy is that every single day on the 9th , i will eventually have a break up with my boyf if attched . bt if single , i will have halhal tk perluu . hmphh kaeyy i hate 9th ! was told not to interfere with his life anymore . was called irritating ! and i hate it you know. he told me being friends is possible but then today he said dun disturb him anymore . its okeayy its alritee , i wont be irritating eyhh ? hmphh , i dun knw what he meant . i guess single is best for this time being , now isnt the right time for me . kaeyy cm phm . but still i love him sgtsgt seperti dahulu , its really hard and heavy my heart is when my mind told me forgt bout him , but i MUST try . i cant give up . i regretted having to stead with someone whom im nt fated with . its just a regretful one though some , i was touched by their love towards me . i missed those times . i want to go back in time and change everything that i have done wrong and not having to be attached with any of my exes except for this last ex . i will not do anything he hate and follow what he say unless otherwise . phm knkn ? hmphh . i miss spending time with him , to shrten words , i regretted having so many exes and losing him and i still do love and really willing to wait . btw , this is the post i told you it didnt save . but apparently it did in the drfts . kekek . pnjg jgak luhh . bleyy tahan .

byee .
Yours truly ,

Saturday, July 4, 2009

5:19 AM

' Tak ku sangka, tak ku duga

okeayy , its been lik erm , 5 days since i didnt update this blog . hahh. been lazy and busy . sorie ayee . life is as per normal bt some thngs made me very shocked of what he told me . kaeyy , today didnt went out . i slept the whole evening , was really tired . currently listening to Tak Ku Sangka , Tak Ku Duga . hehh , its really a nice song . last time when i was with him , my song for him was kau akan kembali , then when we broke up , my song for him was merenung kenangan , tiada guna ku and now my song for him is kehadiranmu and tak ku sangka , tak ku duga . serious . bt the song tak ku sangka tak ku duga is nt that same laa . phmphm ajahh , kaeyy till here , bye , love youu (:

Yourstruly ,