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kalauu youu nk tawuuu,, ii saket hatyy! ii btol saket hatyy nan youu. i'll let you sedar sendiryyy apehh slhh you. hmphh, dahhlahh forgt it,, cukop saket hatyy rbkk. how could you do this. maybe you're like that, but maybe what comes around goes around. you bolehh buat gytuukk ii pon bolehh ahkk. hmphh,, but ii tk kn buat gytuukk. ii akn diamkn diryy. yes,, until you sedar. haishhh. i love you all my might but what ii gt is this, you calling other girls instead of me. and you lied to me. just how dare you do this to me. serious shit but i really cannot take away the pain in my heart. ii tknk gadohh,, ii tknk disakityy all the way but ii don't know what to do anymore. boy, i trusted youu so much but all i get is this. don't you understand me?
fyi,, ii will nt update my malaysia trip. its just tht i'm lazy and disappointed. hmphh,, bye and do takecare. txt me of you want to know about my life. haishhhh.
gdluck to all for your MYE.
wil update abt the days at malaysia soon as it was interesting(: hmphh. meanwhile,, ii would like to led out my feelings. pls dont mind my language for this tyme being.
i'm hurt. real damn hurt. how would youu knw the real thing? met him for awhile. it wa a surprised. ii was supposed to meet ira and ila but then when ii met them,, they're withh zai and nas -.- slmed all of them and ii salam him like friends. then umaira was pushing me,, forcing me to talk to him. just fyi,, the moment ii saw his face,, my heart beats faster and faster but still,, million of pieces are tearing into parts,, thinking of what hppned. haishh. then ii told him,, slm btol2 lahh youu. then we slm. ii asked him whats wrong withh him and he said tkdehh papehh. wak luu ahkk! haishh. saket siaa hatyy. cant stand any longer and we went off. ii was hurt the whole dayy. real damn hurt withh the way you treated me. huhhhhhh~ saket abes siaa hatyyy. i am waiting for your call right now. just wondering if you care to call me to talk to me. ii need you to call me to talk things out. am nt feeling well. my cough is getting bad. even theyy said tht. just pls dont make me start my old behaviour. janjyy tk janjyy,, bilehh dahh stress,, akuu tk kesahh agykk. haishh. whatever it is ahkk guys,, if youu see me starting the old behaviour,, clap for me and nt sayy anyy word. it all started again,, ii would not want to sayy anything. all those shit stuffs tht i've done last tymee will be continue. just watchh and see if tymee really is forcing me.
bye.
pt malaysia skrggg~ ii rinduu zai -.- haishh ii cried the whole night ytd. wahhh): haiyooo. am gnna keep on reading his mcgs over and over again tonight. ii wanna go home.
Hurt. Upset. sick. nt getting anyy better. crying all my tears out. just wished tht my tears left withh no more. yes,, just wished tht ii wont have a heart which ppl cn hurt me. ii hate it. ii damn hate it, coz i'm sad. real sad.
all this while,, all this while.. ii want him,, ii loved him. ii thought we would nt go throughh all these stuffs, ii trusted youu but who were the one whom telling the lies? him or her.
to tht atikah, ehkk,, buat pehh mawuu buat ceritehh, akuu langsong tk makyy kauu. terasehh acl bilehh akuu ltk tht as myy pm. saksakkk! sapehh tudohh sapehh nieyy skrgg. nk sgt pehh akuu makyy kauu? kiwakk,, akuu dahh bobal baekk2 siaa. behh kauu hppy2 go luckyy pyy blgg to shaqeela behh tu shaqeela blgg zai ygg bknbkn? akuu adehh makyy kauu pehh siaa? rbk ehkk,, rbk.
nt gtting anyy bttr. uu're making me lose control. dont ever let me do any suchh stuffs. rmbr tht,, limits are limits. not in the mood. really! ii swear! ahkkk,, papehh ahkk. mawuu pyy malaysia pon tk tenteram. sukehh hatyy korgg ahkk! takecare sudahh~
saket hatyy~dahh abes. tht explains everythng.
eyhhkk.
20/04/10
in point forms.
Class play:
Kayaking:
inside the bus,, received mcg from Mrs Firdouse. read it out for the whole class so everybdyy gt the msg(: thnk you to all the teachers whom have helped us in the play. ily teachers so muchhh(: blahblahblahhh. thts all for the dayy.
21/04/10
Nth much hppend.
basicallyy,,
Thanks to all the 2e2 supporters whom have voted for us(: and to thse who did not, its okayy(:
went home fast. wow! coz nt in the mood to meet anybdyy aftr schh.
boohooo~ and guess what. am nt feeling well and Z doesnt know anythng abt it. hmphh. having sorethroats and all, often feel like vomitting. my stomach is getting bigger! omg! haiyoo. hee. byebye. not in the mood too. but will tryy to cheer up(:
Labels: Class play: Pls vote for 2E2(:hellohh(:
this tymee. ii am going to talk about promises. yeahh,, promises. its a sudden random thng which interrupt me somehow. heee. okayy lets talk and see whether youu agree withh me or not. just basicallyy,, read what ii think is promise. ii know may be that you won't agree, lets make our argument aside hor. hahah. denying is a common thing. so anything just tag me if I'm wrong. hahah!
as far as ii know,, promises are meant to be kept even if tyme passes and things have chnged. coz promises are promises and they are not meant for you to play withh it. yeahh,, NOT for youu to play withh it(: people sayy,, promises are meant to be broken. well, for me, they aren't for you to break it. why make a promise when you want to break it? never make a promise which involves a FOREVER in it, coz it isn't right. coz you will nt live forever,, neither will uu able to make it through unless you're really into it. yeah, ii meant REALLY into it.
Family promise
An example of a broken promise in families,
Dad: wait, ii promise you i'll buy what you want for your bdayy when i have my bonus salary out.
Son: okay(: i'm looking forward to it! hehehe!
(Bonus out)
Son: dad,, you promised. where is my present?
Dad: ohh,, son,, soryy. i've forgotten about it. next tymee okayy.
ohh wth?! when you're making a promise,, make sure you will fulfill it. promises are not meant for you to forgt abt it. haiyooo.
Friends promise
Andrea: yeahh,, ii promise i'll never stead withh any of my friend's ex . i promise you
Jennifer: ohh. i'm glad to hear that. i don't want us to fight for any of our ex. ii know tht my ex loves you,, but ii love him.. ii don't want us to fight for him. but whatever it is, i just want you to be hppy and ii hope you fulfill your promises.
(few weeks later)
Andrea: guess what! i'm attached!
Jennifer: who's the guy?
Andrea: the guy who used to be yours last tymee. the one that ii told you who loves me.
Jennifer: ohh.. that guy... *remains silent,, puts on a fake smile,, and pretended nothing happened*
see, how much you've hurt Jennifer. she pretended nothing hppened,, kept her feelings. throw away all the hurt she felt and pretend that she's happy for you. its good that you have a friend like her.. do anything to make her friend feel happy and know that nothing is wrong.
BGR relationships
Boy: girl,, ii promise you i'll love you forever. ii promise i'll be by your side forever and ii promise ii'll never hurt you.
Girl: are you sure? coz your promise is big..
Boy: yes,, babyy. ii promise youu forever,, i'll be yours.
(months later)
Girl: ii need you to be here. i'm sad
Boy: sorry girl, i'm busy see you!
(next day)
Boy: babe, ii think we should end our relationship. it isn't working.
Girl: but you promised not to....
Boy: i'm sorry.
Girl: *cries and cries*
see how much the boy hurt her. the girl was putting up high hopes for them to last long but ending up the guy to make a decision to break up. no offence to all guys. not all of the guys are like this, anyway.
each of this scene has its meaning to me and maybe some of you. just wanna say,, never make a promise when you know it won't be kept.
common promises which will be broken:
I promise I'll love you forever - BULLSHIT!
i promise i will be by your side each second, forever - PATHETIC!
I promise i won't betray you,, my friend - You will,, one dayy.
Now,, i'm afraid,, afraid to make another promise. but there's this two promises which ii gave to H about Z. and ii just hope i am able to fulfill it. Insya Allah(:
don't ever make a promise when you know,, you will break it.
but hold onto it when you made one.
thats all. takecare(:
look guys,, ii am soryy for not updating. nt having enoughh time to update. it has been veryy normal day ,, after day by day. and its bored. having the same routine all over again and again. okayy,, haishh.
to ila pendek and Z,,
ii am soryy to hide smthh awayy from uu guys, coz its smth whichh nobodyy should knw. maybe its abt me or whoever but ii cnnt tell uu. ii knw these days ii have been feeling down and ii will may be not talking to uu guys in a veryy gd manner. but ii am soryy. as time goes by,, and the right tymee to telluu guys whats wrong,, i'll tell youu. but nvr deny when ii tell youu guys coz its a fact. a fact whichh ii cnnt undo it again. ii'd just wishh ii could undo it but that wishh arent going to work. like a scissors cuttiing a paper. once uu did a minor mistake in cutting,, uu won't be able to undo it unless sealing it withh scotch tape. but uu will still have it marks on it. just like how i'm facing right now,, i'm able to solve it byy realizing my mistakes but still,, an experience will still have it marks on me. haishhh. i'm sorryy to hide some thngs away from youu. ii just cannot let uu know. coz once ii tell uu,, ur reaction will be like this 'jgn merepekk ahkk liyana. manehh adehh siaa.' cnfrmcnfrm one(: haishh.
just basicallyy,, ii want to let you all know, these days is veryy busy days for me. so my healthh will be interrupted. haishh. how ii just wishh ii could get over everythng. i'm lazy to update myy days coz uu will nvr want to knw and its boring~.
byebye.
a sin is a sin. a mistake is a mistake. but when uu realize from it,, uu will nvr want to do it again. but uu will just need to endure remembering the past. coz its hard to forget abt it. whenever how hard uu tried to forget,, uu will remember it again and again. never make a bigg mistake in life. it sucks .
TODAY
hahah(: todayy went to the workshop in JYC. well,, before getting readyy,, called ila to know where she was. she haven't gt readyy yet. pantat luu! hahah! then,, she told me to go her house, just go in. so ii gt readyy and went out of house. the seats beside JYC was seated by these guys. and ii was in a shock for an instance as one of them looked like A.S whom i'm trying to avoid. hahah! then saw jyc was closed. it questioned me for some tymee. then reached ila's house. tried to open her door but was locked. am not trying too break into her house yeahh~ she told me to. hahaha! okayy so ii waited at her staircase and then the door opened. ofcourse byy her. yeahh, went in. told her JYC was closed. so,, we waited for a call from JYC and feww mins later,, a call arrived to ila's phne. so,, we went down to JYC and attended the workshop. onlyy two of us siaa. finished workshop,, me and ila go eat. then went to her house. called myy classmate regarding our music prject. so ii went off to JR's house to do the prject. after tht,, planned to meet wan but nahh,, cancelled coz we find for them bt they were nt there. met Z for awhile then went home around 7++ . go toilet do business. hahah! then ate icecream. then,, went online. A.S was online. talked to him for awhile asking each other's healthh. ohh,, and he's still talking to me in an ii,, uu manner in malay. but ii talked in englishh(: liyanaliyana,, ii thought u're avoiding him? ii guess talking to him as a friend is nt wrong right? coz love doesnt exist in me for him. hahah! then went facebook. now,, updating photos yeahh! and listening to 'that should be me' by justin bieber. ii like! hahah! and here ii am talking to uu~ yeahhh! and i'm waiting for ila's call. will be otp-ing withh her later on. hahah! makesure yeahh, ii cannot wait to know what are they keeping from me. a gd or bad surprise,, ii dont know. hahah! i'm forgiving all of uu for this. hahah! will update soon yeahh. don't worry. ii love Z. but we are nt attched to each other taw! onlyy friends.
P.s. MZ and Z is the same person(:
till here,, ily guys. btw,, addy is cute(: he's a small boyy lahh. hvent schh yet. he's like myy anak(: hahaha! kayy shh. byebye!
heyy,, amacm dudes?
hahahah! okayy . basicallyy i'm just letting all of uu knw tht i'm great here. well not tht great coz sometimes ii will be down. yeahhh. downdowndown~ emm,, reason,, don't ask. me,, myself also don't know. haiyoo(: heeee. okayy lets talk. these days i'm getting busy and busier. hahah. withh school stuffs,, and more. smpyykn dorgg ajak lpkk,, ii cnnt. hahah! maybe alasan atauu entahh? heehehe(: currentlyy chatting withh syafiq. that 'haizad'. hahah. ceritehh duluu sioww. and btw,, mawuu bencyy orgg zaman bilehh sioww. biar orgg bencyy kitehh,, kitehh buat bdhh(: yeahhhh! mcm phm. okayokayyy. i'm hungryy. what to eat siaa? heheh. smbdyy please suapkn! hahahah. fake(:
to Love(: , hmphh,, idk what u're hiding from me. surprise or non-surprise,, hmpphhh. terserahh uu lahh.
to ila,, ira, hannis,, mimi and whoever knows what was it abt,, papehhlahhkn. akuu bersbr jekk. haiyoo korgg ehkk mcmmcm.
and btw,, my simcard is still cnfiscated(: and it sucks(: still cn smile -.- haiyoo. susah siaa tkdehh simcard. seriouslyy! susahh hidop. okayy emm,, nxt tymee then i'll tell uu guys myy days. coz right now,, nthh interesting lorr. hahah! bye(:
just because of one simcard,, my world turns upside down. what the hell hppened to liyana. it is nw 10.39 and i've just finished crying coz smthh isnt right,, yeahh. smthh reallyy isnt right. see,, i'm crying right now. seriously. this is the only way i'm letting out my feelings. why the hell i'm crying badly right now! fuck! (sorry for all the vulgarism). idk whyyy! stupid! where the hell are my words when i say i won't cryy anyymore. stupid! i'm nt lying but ii sweaar i'm crying right now thoughh ii still cn type this post out. ii just found out smthh! and indeed myy feelings were true! smthh hppned and its unpleasant. dying is better! stupid life ahkk,, asshole! go die.
and for uu,, lauu uu nk syggkn dorgg,, pyy nan dorgg. dorgg btol2 syggkn uu and i tkdpt give uu what uu want. maybe yes maybe not.
dahh,, no mood. bye. go die. asshole! errhhhh!
SIMCARD CONFISCATED!best pehh? wakluhhh! hmphh. angryy,, upset and angry and hmph,, papehhlahh nakkkkkkk! its reallyy upsetting uu knw. reallyy upsetting. serious ahkk. hatyy tktenteram. later,, mawuu mcgg diehh susahh. tawuu acl? coz no simcard. ishhh! have to bear withh myy feelings. err,, how would uu feel if ur simcard hv been confiscated and there's no wayy to contact ur gerl/boy. susahh hidop! ofcourse nt tenteram. papehh jadykkk susahh kn, somemore ppl dont use brain before doing smth. go cnfiscate simcard also no use. want to cntct me amcm? if ii go anywhere? pndyy2 lahh nakkk! haiyoooo! saket hatyy siow! serious ahkk saket hatyy! errrr. sueyy btol ahkk niaryyy. papehhlahhpapehh!
To ilapendek: tkmohhlahh gytuukk. manehh tawuu he's in process of forgetting her? coz he wants to move on. like me? haishh. ii rinduu MZ lahh ila.. susahh taw tkdehh simcard. feel like crying my tears out till it bleeds!
ahkkk! stupid dumdum! jgn plakk simcard hilang-.- ehkk ,, kiwakk! hatyy tk tenteram sioww! susahh hatyyyyyyyyyy! ii want my simcard bck lahh. pls lahh. ii begg uu siaaaa! haishhh. gynieeklahh naseb hidup seorang pompan ygg slaluu kenehh dislhhkn. errrr -.- susahh hidop! kiwakkk. haishh, bear withh it liyana! bear withh it. errr! tkleyyy! papehh. hmphh. bye ahkk. tkdehh modd. takecare!
yeahh ,, amcm boys and girls? ii wanna update bbyy(: and yeahh,, i'm hppy eventhoughh ii don't have A.S around coz ii don't reallyy need him. coz all this while ii was just hurt,, not hppy. ahkk shh. lets storyy abt fridayy,, saturday,, sundayy,, and todayy yeahhh(: yeahhhhh!
2/04
ohh yeahhh, hahah. it was started withh a normal,, bad then hppy day. don't uu notice? everyy sadness will end up in hppiness eachh dayy(: so don't be too happyy,, don't be too sad. coz the opposite will hppen. okayy,, whatever. soo today,, ii went to 401 to meet up withh ila to go JR house to do myy project. checkk2,, ii go 401 already,, plan cncelled and it was nt informed. pantat -.- then got two abggs behond me. abggss ehkk abgsss. okayy shh. met ila,, told ila then go buy new specs then blahblahblahh, then go meet him. waited for him for like half an hour ++ stupidd,, chehh fakee(: then met him,, he bought for me air coz ii told him so and tissue,, coz ii told him so. hahah,, kekek pehh? diam. kayy. then proceed to his abg sedarehh house withh ila,, mimi,, AP and the abg sedarehhlahh. and him also lahh. hahah,, so sweet lahh diehh. pt tnggehh,, he go take my pics and he gave me his pics. hahah. ((: ii likee. kayy diam then blahblahblahh,, we go lpk,, so sweett siaa! caerr abes. uu knw,, ii knw. shhh! hahaha. then go back home reached aroud 5.30++. then done horr for myy dayy.
3/04
baekk ahkk haryy nieyyy(: yeahhh! sweetest dayy ever. ii go watch kudehhkepang, sapto ahkk. hahah, woots,, seram bebb. okayy go. hahah. what else to sayy ahkk? hmphh then watchh watchh. then blahblahhblahh. ii met MZ. if uu go ila's blog,, then uu knw who. hahahahahha! uu know,, ii know. hahahah! then blabblabla. reached home at 11 siaaa. haiyooo! seram sehh alekk mlm sorgg2. kiwakkk, adehh bykk abggsss! hehehe. then blablabla. MZ was so sweet! damn sweet. ila and ira pon agree. ii knw((: heheheh. was so sweet pt tepyy pntyy tuu. alalalalalahh then one point ii almost cried. bcoz of smthh. uu knw,, ii knw,, the public don't know. hahahah! okayy goo. then pt dlm bus sweett jgakk. everywhere ii go withh him,, sweetlahh. bilehh diehh alekk,, he mcgged me smthh. sweet kehhpehh? hahah! laenkalyy dpn2 jekk,, uu! hahahah. kayy shh. then go home. blahblahblahh, then go sleep. tadahh! finishh. ohkk,, btw,, soryy wan and pipit all. akuu pyy paitaoo korgg. hahah. too bad lorr. akuu dahh have fun sgt. heheh.
4/04
okayy. today was bored. wake up late. got a call. tkjadykk pyy buat project then go religious, reached home like late? okayy nt tht late, tkjadykk buat prjct agykk then got homw,, blababla. go rest buat hw. habes ceritehh. boorrrrriiiinnngggg!
TODAYY!
yeahh bby yeahh! todayy! hahah. today was nt tht fun. ii go schh withh iira. reached sch take anthem. lesson,, recess,, lesson,, then finishh schh. after schh met up witthh ira and ila. go lpk. then blahblahblah. then ii go home go chnge *toot*. hahah! for me to knw,, for uu to find out. ehkehkkk! then we go met up withh aiz and wan. wan kekek kehh pehh. he says this 'pukimakk,, matyy tknk. serondeng.' cute siaa, then me,, ila,, ira imitate him. yeahh! one part when lpk cutee sehh 'bila kau kata kau sayang,, yeahh!' ahhaah. kayy ira's idea. then planned to meet MZ then we proceed to _____. kenehh mandyy huajan jgakk ahkk. haiyoo! then reached there,, waited tros tkjadykk jmpehh, haishh. then go home. reached home at 6.15. hmphh uu,, ii tkmrhh lahh. stakat rinduu jekk, bkn marahh. but he sweet ahkk! sanggop pehh nk amekk ii bsk tpyy too bad,, ii 'm nt free. haishh! and now,, i'm posting. yeahhhh!
AS,, whyy you're different this days? uu asked tht. bcoz uu made urself different. hmphh papehh. ii dont want to masokkk campor ur life,, ur urusan. mawuuupon tdk uu mcgg me,, ii wont reply coz ii promised myself. and thts how it feels! being nt lyn-ed. papehh2. now,, ii want uu to realize how ii feel! hmphhh. and stip withh ur world and nonsense.
MZ,, ii knw uu hve to choose between her,, her and me? whatecver ur decision is,, ii respect and still ily. ohh and yeahh,, ily. hahah! kayy gd. tc dear!
tc ppl, the word : yeahhhh! serondengg!
hahah. gdluck(:
boyy,, i'm over youu alreadyy lahhh!
hahaha. well,, basicallyy,, ii told myself,, its no use of me waiting for him and giving myself false hope. ahkk,, wth. i've cried for him,, waited for him,, gave him everythng,, tryy to chnge for him. but what did ii get? still,, nothng. nothing at all. boyy,, just quit making me wait for uu when uu urself know tht uu wont come back to me. ii gave uu time,, ii gave uu love but all i gt is nothing but false hopes. ii thought uu still care,, ii thought uu still love,, but ii was wrongg. uu were nt there for me when ii needed uu,, uu were just sweet talking mother fucking. soryy,, but ii am reallyy fucked up to what uu make me do. uu took away my first kiss,, and then ,, uu leave me. uu promised not to leave me. and all of that were ur shits! uu never meant it. ohh,, what the hell. ii hate meeting uu,, ii hate uu for stealing away my first kiss eventhoughh ii told uu ii will never regretted. ii dont regret,, but ii regret of falling into ur trap. into ur stupid world trap. ohh,, shut it. ii 'm seriouslyy over uu. and ii hate uu for making me in love withh uu and making me wait for uu. what ii did for uu were all wasting myy tymee. ahkk,, myy pesann for uu,, quit ur sweet talking and lying to ur ownself. i didn't tudohh uu anythng so quit telling ppl ii make up stories abt uu. go find another girl to sweet talk withh. ahkk,, bye.
to kwn lpk :
assalamualaikum. ahahhaha! okayy. akuu rinduu korgg(: lamehh tk jmpehh. bz pnyehh pcl behh korgg manehh adehh bykk ajak akuu lpk. pntat btol. okayyokayy. ehkk,, soryy akuu dahh tk bykk campor korgg lahh kn. and btw,, akuu dahh over diehhlahh(: tkyahh susahh2 tlgg akuu. cumeh blgg jekk budakk tuu tkmohh menyesal saketkn hatyy akuu. sbb akuu nk move on and tkkn pusing blkg. woohoooo! korgg btol ahkk,, diehh bobal WORLD pnyaa! hahah. kayy,, golekk~ papehh mcgg yehh untokk ajak akuu turon. tpyy akuu tk cnfrm akuu akn turon lok nan korgg kehh tk. byebye. takecare. kirem slm pt laenn2(:
untokk siyy diehh. M.Z.
hahahha,, so sweet of uu lahh(: thnks for caring abt me and sweet to me(: haahah. okayy. uu were there for me and making me hppy all the way. hahah,, alalalah. u're too sweet for me lahh(: okayy shh. i'm happy tht uu were there for me. bilehh ii was sickk,, u sent me to the doctors',, uu told me to eat myy medicine(but still ii dont,, the medicine terlaluu tk sdp ahkk) and uu took good care of me(: ii like(: okayy nieyy melebehh. but serious ahkk,, ii like ppl caring abt me. ahah,, okayy. M.Z! hahaha. thnks ehkk. and it was wonderful getting to meet uu just now(: okayy. laenn kalyy jmpehh yeahh.
