Thursday, July 30, 2009

6:43 AM

amaciam

hmphh . as you can see , it has been a long time since i last updated . hahh , reason was , came back home late and was unable to use comp . hmmpph lahh ehh hmpphh . now . today was damn moody . i was thinking abt a lot of things . banyak hal was in my mind . hmphh , im just scared of losing the happiness that i have in me now . i went through my ______ sent msgs and i found out something i was suprised . i was really disappointed . why must it be ? i wont let what happen last time happen again . is it time to tell my _______ ? coz i want to just let it out . i dont want to lose anybody now . please ? i dont want .

Suzila , we were once close but why now we're drifting ? is it me who is in the wrong ? we are now neither fighting nor baek-ing . we're just not talking . hmphh , maybe today i wasnt talking to you at all but that doesnt mean we are fighting kan ? merepek lahh ehh . bt fyi , i dun love him anymore kaeyy ? hmphh . no use lahh ehh . tady i was in a bad mood as for you to know . i was thinking of everything . mungken aku tk dpt bilang kau apehh jady but its nt because i hate you but because im still not ready to tell you coz it will led out my tears . tady , recess pon i wasnt even being hyper because i was making my decision . i was thinking of what really going to be my future . i was full with tears in my eyes but i stopped it from dripping because i dont want anybody to ask . i was not satisfied with whatsoever reasons . i was upset with ______ . i'm angry with someone else . but what im upsetting about was really a hard thing for me to forgive . if you're reading this , i want to know im sorry . i knw im nt the one you should be going to instead, Aisha is betterthan me . kaeyy ?

Farina , thankyou for having to care bout me . without you , im sure i'll be drench with tears . hmphh , its over over lahh . i knw bt now im really over him . only having feelings for him as a friend . hmphh . antare due laki i dun knw ___ ataw ___ . hmphh im confused . bt i knw my feelings for _____ dahh tkde .

Aisha , takecaree of suzila , can ? im nt the one who is good of having to takecare of her . you can layan her better . thanks for those 7 months of frenship. 230109 (:

The rest . im sorry if ive done wrong okeayy ?

_____ , ex , im already nt thinking of you , sukehh ? and btw , im nt fighting with suzila over you . its no use fighting over a guy . tk gune . kerje bodoh jehh lahh . pompan sumehh cnfrm agree kn ? hmphh just takecare and no naughty naughty (:

Abang , i knw you've been reading my blog . welcome (: hmphh . biler2 i want to tell you something about him .. i meant our family member (one of them) , ive been keeping smth and i think skrg masenye adk dpt blg . hmphh . and, adk dpt phone alek bler ? hehh . last but not least , last long and happy2 nan die taw . no naughty naughty (: hoho . takecaree (:

Yours truly ,