went back home straight after school . gd girl (: i know ^^, geeees . arrived home, and got to know, electricity don't have , boooo ): thought of studying, so took out my notes for mt and start revising . done, about 45mins of studying, i slept after that . i felt so tired -.- slept at 4, woke up at 7+ . in the middle of sleeping, alot of distractions -.- grrr, i ngah mimpi biol taw . grrrr ! abehy biol call, i terbgn . pelik plak . coz org laen kol, i tk terbgn -.- slept again, on off on off . woke up and then watched tv for 10 mins, and i took out my file and revised again , weee (: i so the goodgirl . done with that, and here i am now . i'm done with mt (: tmrws' exam , nervous dehy . gdluck , peepos . one problem . i lost my sci tbb ! how . ppl, any extra sci tb to lend me for this exam period ? pretty please . hmms ): how ehy if this happen ?

i was waiting for his text that he had finished work . but then, it turned out he finished it at 4.30 . i fell asleep at 3.30 . i was so disappointed of myself . but somehow, i cannot possibly trusted him to finish work at that time uh . hmms, don't know the reason why . pfft -.- i waited coz i missed him terribly much . he didn't told me to wait, but i insisted on waiting coz of this miserable feelings for him . hmms, have he woken up ? no ? yes ? hmms ..

i don't feel special anymore . he used to tell me, coz i'm special for him . but now, does those words still existed . hmms .. i don't feel like it . ): booooo , i hate these feelings . i don't wanna make it an end, i don't wanna get hurt . please ? don't hurt me, life ): and don't hurt me, love ♥

woke up around 10.30, texted biol . then he called, and all he can say was sorry ? and all the pain tht was caused was just cured by a sorry ? was so not in the mood at first but still, i forgaven him . naseb hati i senang lembut, kalau tak, smpi skrg i tkkn maafkan you . gees^^, then slept for awhile, woke up again, watched tv, texted eyra and biol . told mummy, to go jp and she wanted to follow . so, yeah . gt a missed call from ex, wah, shocked . urgggghhhh . then he texted, 'yana tk twon .' why he wanted to knw ? i said, no, why ? then i say why suddnly call ? then he say tkboleh keh, tk boleh tkpeh . then i say, tk kate tkboleh what . then gt a missed call again from him . texted him why call . then he say nk bebual jap -.- wth, then i say blahblah blah he called again . i picked it up . talked, was kinda like -.- we're over laa , sygsyg tkperlu keluar . okay ? urghhh , eventhough its sweet, but dont be stmf . you come, when you have no one . dah gitu, hanged up, eyra called, say go out at 3.30 . so got ready . choosing my clothes to go out, isnt easy . almost one hour sia . around 3.35 went out and took 157, wah sehy . smth made me panicked in the bus -.- grrr, penipu ehy kau dek . geram aku ! then, went straight to rubi, and bought my shoes . nice, i like (: and eyra came . mummy bought slipper . (: then went to other shop tp buy beg . me and eyra have the same bag . our taste so the same baby ! then walkedwalkedwalked, planned to eat . was hungry, manss . sat down then got this eyra's junior . wah, stare smcm . kite ade hutang ehy ? kalau ade blg uh . grr, ade batas sia . if its not because of my mum, dah lame kene tegor . naseb kau ! grrrr. geram . kite dh mcm , siaksiak ! -.- ! done eating, full sia ! the popcorn chicken shake, nice ehy ! you should try , gees . proceeded to this fashion and looked around . nice weyy, the price also nice deh . errrr, then went around and waited for the bus home . eyra took different bus as mine . got these guys mcm penah knl, but i dared not to see them . irritating bdh dorg . erhhh ! bused home, 198 (: reached, home . tried out my beg, and shoes . tggl shorts/pants . i want go shopping again ! please ): i beg you .

i am so lucky to have you as my mataer, so sweet of you to post abt me on your blog and told me to cheer up, thnkyou for being there for me and cheering me up . i nvr want to lose you no more . i love you v.v. much, love <3
nono, dont misunderstand, i single lehhh . my mataer is Eyra, she's a girl . she my friend, bestfriend, mataer, sister and sometimes enemy ? hahahah . grrrrr. ttp hati skrg pade Biol, satu dan hanya . hahah ! awhh, liyana sweet, kay, puji diri sendiri , i like !

Today ; here we go ~

gees, ^^, as per usual, went to school . ends at 12.30 and texted Ahnie abt us going Bugis, so yeah, was told to meet at bustop at around 1+ . reached home around 12.50, took my towel, and i gt the time to talk to Eyra otp . hehehs ^^, then hanged up around 1.10 i bathe . because of knowing i was late, i rushed and finished bathing at 1.15 or 1.20 . wow ! then prayed, as what mummy told me to do so, makeup, then rushed off to bustop . was raining . errrh ! then Ahnie texted, meet at lakeside mrt . wah, then waited for the bus and took 98M, while on the bus, Biol and me texted . erhh, was like so kedebabum ah when he say meet me kan ? erhh, if not, i'll meet him sia . wah, missed him alot . 1month nt meeting him -.- ! then reached mrt , met Ahnie and Aicha . Aicha say ' booms pehy kau pehy ***** . ' i was like siaksiak , first thing she saw and realized was tht toot . wah, embarrased . mak ayyyy , then met Aicha's mama and salam-ed . i thought we were going to bugis but nehh, geylang lah sehy . Freddy was waiting for Aicha at the interchnge so when they met , we head to the joo kiat complex . we seperated . aicha's mama and her friend looked at other things, me and Ahnie, Aicha and Freddy . wahh, walked2 , plain sia, kiwak . errrhhh ! then go buy donut . hungry sia yana . then, met Freddy and Aicha . sat down and Ahnie say, go bugis ajeklah . then , Aicha saay, you go lor . then i followed . while walking towards the int, we stopped by city plaza, looked for baju for mataer Ahnie, and , most was girl's baju . OMGee, lawah gile babs punye ! i wanted to save my money for other stuffs at bugis . wahhh, hmms . money also fuhhllermak, gile babs nye lawah ~ then, took the train, to bugis . my leg was aching . pasrah lerrr ! then walk3 , it was like almost 1 1/2hour for us to walk around and find a suitable shirt for mataer Ahnie . then find my skirt, wah pnyelah susah but atlast found it . irritated uh with the business and selfishness of ppl . maen langgar jek . ade mate, tknk pki . tkdeh mate, baru tawu . erhhhhh !~ then ppl starestare . erhh, kiwak, starestare pon ade batasnye lah ! ishhh ! walked, walked, plan to go Penni, called Alep for direction . he say take mrt lor . wasted lor, i was so lazy so me and Ahnie decided to go Imm, instead . took the train and wah, no seat from bugis to j.e . nice or what ? pfft ! went to longjohn and ate there . wah, sempat lah org pt dapur tgk yana and senyum pt yana , py keje lah, menggatal jek tawu . errhhh ! tgk semacam -.- then walked around, went to cotton on . bought shirt . ohmygee, i nk seluar tu but wasted, i tk bwk cukup duit . erhhh ! hmms, then, waited for eyra . wah, eyra mcm hiphopper pehy sia . then, we went one round and came back to cotton on -.- just browsed through the thing . ten walked, walked, walked . we planned to go playground . i knw, childish kan . so what ? there's still a kid in us, my readers . but , cute . took pictures and laughed around . wah, i like . then walked, to old changkee . bought food . and walked again, went to j.e int to send Ahnie off . me and eyra went off to take the mrt , stupid thing, we went to the wrong platform . kekek sendiri uh . then, took the mrt to jp, no seat until one morestop to jp, so we just sat down for comfy for a moment . wahsehy, in the mrt, bangladeshi, indians, chinese, malays were like staring . serious shit, gt limits when you want to stare . erhhhh, . taik kerbau btol . reached, then went walkwalkwalk, eyra bought things, then a bag attrct my attention . dont take tht bag ! tmrrw i'll be buying, idc ! erhhh ! then, rested for afew mins, sitting down . then, biol called . blahblahblah , die buat prangai . erhhh -.- then , we wanted to play swing, so weent to blck 600+ . walked, then saw the moon . full moon, then i called biol, i told him and he dont sound like he cared -.- wth, saket pehy haty . then, i hanged up . hha, smth did hppn when i saw smth up on the tree . stupid me to tegor . erhhh . then go swing . played for awhile tros kpale mabok to the max and me and Eyra talked abt our wishes . hmms, kepade org yg kami cintehkan . then, planned to go out tmrrw to spend time with Biol and Eyra's beloved . but, Biol kerje . i have to tell Eyra to talk to biol coz i have no mood to talk to him after the way he treated me otp . then, texted Eyra's beloved . blahblahblah, we went off, to bus int and sat down for awhile . since biol cannt make it, eyra told me to ajak ex -.- mcm nk tknk, but biol was in my mind, hmms .. then, alasan was given from ex . i want this to be the last moment for us . but, nehmind, . then so on, i cnfessedto eyra about my feelings towards biol . she's the only want who knows . then, talked, went to wait for my bus 187 . and bused home . in the bus, sumpah org sume mepek . irritating to the max . langgar sane syni . errhhhh -.- then this one indian guy stare2, like wth -.- erhh ! got limits .then i saw this one chinese uncle play game . like so interesting and i was focusing on him playing it only till i realized one chinese guy was staring at me again . grrr . then suddenly, these few guys from outside the bus, and pointed at me and like everybdy looking at me . seram or what . then git, at lakeside area there, saw my abg at bustop but i was in the bus . the nxt bustop saw my friends' abg . hehs ! then i alighted ,gees, finally . hours of standing . i walked home and reached . tried out my skirt and all . i didnt text . i'll wait for him, then . i totally tkdeh mood sia . hmms, blahblahblah, i'm here now .

i forgot to add in, at joo chiat complex, wth lah name tmpt tu, aicha ditegur, pki baju agak2 same nan nyonya ni . kkekek or what uh / ahahahah !

thats all . and i'm totally fed up . grr, i want edit my phtos . and i want biol to take halfday tmrw! but nehmind, keje lah ehy . hmms, alright thts all for today (:

i feel like crying, why ? err, no mood seriously . did i hurt you ? i don't know . if i did, i didn't mean to, ♥ . hmms , ): whywhy ? gees, i'm so f****** not having the mood . erhhhhh ! -.-

Hmms, just a simple thing to say . errr, i miss someone . waiting for his reply since just now . 5hours, waited for his reply . neh, not a single reply from him . did i hurt him, did i ? hmms, antara satu kan terluka . can this world be fair, can someone not get hurt ? erhh, G U I L T Y, sad, angry . i;m sorry . just, )': hmms . please come, luck ♥

hmms, i dont feel quite okay . idk why . suddenly, past flashed back . today was kinda filled with tears, sadly . hmms, after plan were all cancelled, i cried and cried . i watched his video .. then, BIOL came into my mind, then sap, zaileng . then i realized, i am single . no one to love and to be faithful with . and no one for me to last long with . it has been 2 months and 2 days being single . wow, but somehow, i missed being attached . the sweet memories . the bitter memories . and all thos plain memories . hmms, L O V E . what is it ? errr, something which can be felt but cnnt be seen ? maybe . i dont know , i dont feel the love anymore people . dont you realize it ? hmms ! i dont ~
can i say i love him, no .
can i say i like him, no .
can i say i need him, no .
coz we're just friends -.-
hmms, how i wished it will be more . neh, it wont happen yana . stop dreaming ! erhhh ! fantasy land . wah, where he ? i miss him already . i just feel like crying . neh, no . stop !