it has been months loving him . waited for him . knowing him . but, it seemed that we never will be meant to be . but all i expected for us to be at the start of our friendship was just normal friends . i didn't even thought of loving him . leading a single life for four months did made me strong, knowing that i don't have to have a boyfriend . all i need was a guy to love and me to be loved by the same guy . and then i'll realized . its no use being in a relationship . yes, today marks my forth month being single . i did cry . i did reject . i did love . i did hate . i did scold . i did moved on . but then, at times of confusion, all i'll do is stare into blank space and tell myself, i missed being attached :/ and tears of sadness rolled down my cheeks . at times when i don't know what else to do, all i'll do is cry in the night, alone in my room . being single and attached has no difference . only that in r/s you're officially owned by someone . all you'll do, is cry . oh well , 4 months did made my year . i didn't know, i can stand being single for 4 months . all those ups and downs, still, there's someone in heart .

`and yeah , i'm glad to have someone to love . thankyou WBB for being there . and also thankyou, Zai for still loving me for sometime after we broke up :/ hmms ..

and i just hope, i'll find someone i've been finding for :D

- and last but not least ,