refresh, refreshh and refreshhh!
2010 is a hard year. well, it is really hard. teachers hv been talking to me about my life. 4 teachers hv cnfrnted me and 5 times I've been cnfrnted. its abt everything. about me, about my life... well, i want to chnge. indeed, 12/02/10 was a very sad dayy. the whole of the day i cried. in class, i cried, everywhere i cried. people around me will ask what hppn to ur eyes, and there comes out the lies.. but some were able to knw everything. form teacher talked to me, and i cried infront of her. my tears cnt be cntrolled. damn, evrything is a challenge. 2010 is hard! but i hv to face it. friends, family, and even my guy were all my chllenge. most to most, i will be the centre of the problem as in like i am the centre person among them. it is hard. i feel like crying right nw. but onlyy one thing tht is the most important thing. my familyy, him.. i cant bear to lose him. how long more must we stop talking.. i wont come to u, yes, i mark my words. lets let life move by its own. moods are changing day by day, people are changing day by day. in a blink of an eye, everything will change. trust me, everything.. okayy, stop!
refreshhhh!
yesterday was really a veryy 'bad' night(sunday, 14/02/10). lets start off from the evening first.
at arnd 4+ ila(pendekk) came to my house. ila was from her mom's house. wow! new laptop beb! then, we slack under my house. invited pipit, ahmad. some tagged along like q and rahman. went to sc to slack. 6.30 went back. shake hands with the rest and suzila went back withh me. aafter all those nonsense in my house, suzila wanted to go home. so, i decided to send her home but b4 tht, go 7eleven first. my youngest cousin who is over night-ing at my house, wanted to come along so i hv to bring him or else he would cry. i cant bear to see him cry. reached 7eleven, smth caught his attention, a game booth. he wanted to play but i didnt allow because we had to rush bt he insisted. therefore, he shouted to me 'if sister dont want me to play, i want go home!'(in malay) and he dashed out of 7eleven. i was like panicking. when suzila and i went out, he was gone. he is 7 years old! i panicked. i went finding him. it couldnt be tht fast he ran home? i asked a man and he said he dont know. bt he saw my cousin running out.
to be continued...
next episode. hahahahahha
i went to the traffic light and i called my mom. my mom was scolding me and she told me to find him. i could hear in her voice tht she is upset. omg! when i turned arnd, i saw one child who looks like my cousin. and me and suzila quicklyy ran to him but before tht i shouted his name as loudly as i can. we went to him and i asked him where did he go and so on.... he cried and i started crying too. suzila even have the guts to say 'akuu pon nak nanges siaaa' (i also want to cry siaa) then i hugged him. suzila told me, that everyone was looking at me when i shouted. even suzila was shocked. ahahahahhaha, u never know who i am yet when im totally angryy. sent suzila until rc and went back home. while walking home, told amirul(my cousin) not to do it anymore. and he kept insisting on playing the game. i told him my reasons and he looks like he wanted to cry. but i stopped him uhhkk.( so sweet of me) ahahahhaha. then right, reached home, my mom scolded him but i was pity of him so i accompanied him inside my room, stopping him to cryy. it was my fault too lahhh. kn): haiyooo. worst experience, beb! ahahahahhaha. till here then. that was it(:
byebye(:
